I didn't die I just became more fabulous

When I was younger I did reimagine my life if I had been born male. You see my mum always wanted a boy and made out that the fact I was female was a great inconvenience. And as I got older it does seem they get the better end of the deal oof life in all things,they are babied alot longer, their mistakes are easily papered over but if us females make a mistake, why it's always we should have known better, and don't get me started with caring for the kids, longer after the man has left. But I don't know any guy who has slogged as much as I have and picked themselves back up and up again without running back home and financed their own second chances (now at uni). You think my mum would be proud? No, she hopes I havnt made a big mistake, other females are often our enemies. Well at least I have these Sun Slatz glasses to wear, while I battle on.

We are truely only alive, when we have almost died

They say time is a healer, but I don't think that's strictly true, I think its more of a case that you accept what's happened, that its forever changed you, that it has forever changed the way you see people. And for a long time I did dislike people, I disliked the people who apparently had foresight for what was to come but were not a good enough friend to ever voice it. I disliked guys who didn't accept that they had treated their girlfriends meanly before finally moving on to the next ones and more importantly I disliked my own family for being estranged from one another so that I couldn't recognize what real and healthy relationships were. Last week I was asked for forgiveness from a person who didn't want to know the truth, they were no friend to me but I decided to give them the truth so that they may understand it when it happens to them. Now they know the truth but they only really wanted my sympathy for an event they caused and truly wanted to happen, I think I dislike these types of people the most, the people who don't really want to see, because I was once one of them.

Daniel J O'Brien aka Deadbeat Dan ( London )

I still have received no money from Daniel J O'Brien (Daniel O'b), who still being supported by his new girlfriend was able to stay in London. So him being a scam artist was rewarded, I did take it to a small claims court but as his new friends are protecting him, its unlikely they will be able to serve it to him. The worst feeling and still is was it was never real for him,as time went on I got the full story, he pretended to be single and told his new girlfriend he was saving to move out. At the same time he wanted me to pay to move to Bermondsey where she and some of his work friends lived, I was the means to get things he was to pathetic to get himself, he saw me as an easy target and over the year he slowly parted me from my money. He knew my dreams, yet he happily destroyed them, worse he wasted my time and kept in a relationship that was never going anywhere and in a job I hated all so that he could be supported. He had the audacity to bring his girlfriend to my work place to barter a £10 a week payment which at that time was my weekly food budget, yes he picked a girl who was so happy to have a boyfriend finally, that she still wanted to go with a guy you fakes a relationship for free bed and board. When I went back to Reading in Feb, I spoke to his family, who told me he had done this before, clearly not giving a damn about other people runs in his family as well. As far as I am considered ,Edwina and John O'Brien are just as complicit as him in this fraud. I was put in debt and had no room of my own for 4 months, I lost loads of weight due to being broke. Im back in the situation that I was in 2011, hardly any money, debts and isolated. If I saw him again would happy push him in front of the nearest moving vehicle or down a flight of stairs, non fussed.

Daniel J O' Brien (Deadbeat Dan of Bermondsey)

I have not been on here much because I have been paying for a £3k scam, and trying to erase the lie I have been spun for a year and 3 months. In June my boyfriend and former finacee Daniel J O'Brien moved down unexpected from Reading, while I was recovering from major surgery, looking for work and a place to live, funded by myself. He had 9 months to save, had me running round prior looking for work in Portsmouth as he wanted to start a new life together there (looking back he was actual not a nice man). He secured work at an Islington pub, then lost it before finding his niche at Goodmans field pub a JD Wetherspoons Pub and we moved into a flat. I helped financed and supported his move to london as it looked like he was going to be long term unemployed and if you love someone you are meant to help and support them? He caused me so much stress I had to be readmitted as the procedure didn't heal. Your Mum tells you about, cheats, fakes friends and those internet scams but not about fake boyfriends out to rinse you for all you got. To cut a story short when I started asking to pay his way, he found a girl whose never had a boyfriend (see he picks easy women) to spin stories he found her at the new workplace, yes he probably was looking for a new cash cow at the last place but there where no takers. And new friends to let him sleep on their couch she has plenty of them being a student ( he liked to pretend he was cool, when he isn't). The worst thing he was earning enough to leave, he wasn't giving it to me! But drained me to the point I was in debt. As I read the Grazia magazine article too late, here are the signs. Signs your boyfriend is a financially abuser and Plain Shady 1)He into everything you are(at the start) 2)Little friends that have known him a long time and not close to family or respected 3)Claims to have done amazing things in the past, but has no mementos or pictures 4)Angry outbursts (blames other people a lot) 5)Depressed and sick (havnt we all been? But he requires you to drop everything 6)Always pointing out things he likes, but hardly buys you anything 7)Makes you pay most of the time and claims to miss manage his money 8)Has prior debts he ignores 9)Unreachable some days (wants you to be always chasing him) 10)Is given a lot of help but still can not pay his way, even though you have survived on less 11) Has a lot of stories, sob stories about himself 12) Your family don't like him, accuse him of slowing you down or is aggressive 13)Problems with addictions or claims to have prior 14)Claims his last girlfriend was abusive or unstable (yes when they calculated how much money they have been scammed for) Or if in doubt be careful a man who looks like this is 29yr and from Reading and goes on so much about loving Wolves and being one. Hes not, hes an urban fox instead,survives on scraps and manky. current fb names Daniel O'b,(main) James Brien (image), Danny O'Brien, Dan Brien (E Cullan)

A Trip a Week- Day trip to Bexhill

I finally made it back to Bexhill a year too late maybet it was a welcome break from the boredom of work which has slowly become a nightmare. The weather was not too good but we managed too have a good look around for vintage shops. I couldn't find the vintage shop i visited last time but Maude was still open, many of their stock was way out of my price range for someone who regularly wears vintage. We then wondered down to Bexhill Museum a quaint little museum where I found a great little book called 1950s American Fashion by Jonathan Walford,which to which discusses ready to wear and its producers. Im not sure if all these costumes were geniune. I had to take a picture of the window of this shop, it was filled with 50's shirtdresses and other garments an older lady of the 50s might wear. I really like the pink sweater in the window its so 50's and really would go with my Hastings skirt.

Having my Cake and Eating It

Today is an okay day,I finally got my dream dream glasses. The glasses that came with the set are only fit for the bin. I can't blame the seller as I never asked about the condition but luckily I bought another pair last month and it fits.

Going Places

I get bored very easily, I get bored of people, bored of things and bored of some places but I am never bored of Brighton. In Brighton I most sample the cupcakes from the many bakeries, have 2 scoops of ice cream from Scoup and Crumb, go to Montezuma and get a bar of white chocolate with ginger and chilli. Marvel at the jewellers in the Lanes and get my fudge fix. So in March I dragged the boy toy to Brighton to appreciate the place as much as I do. For me Brighton is the perfect Seaside town, it has everything. The dream bed

Bake

This month Ihave finally been able to focus! My mood has always been sensitive to the weather, but the last couple of months the weather has been particular bad and so has been my mood. I have finally got some outside help, to get me to focus and care and during my month of clarity I cooked areceipe everyday. I finally cut a vintage 50s fabric to make into a full skirt. And I baked my staple Chocolate butter cake to be wheeled out at birthdays, betrays and crap interview. The Man requested his birthday cake to be heart shaped and chocolate. The cake is easy to make and very moist because of the milk, water and amount of butter it contains. The chocolate icing keeps it together, still lovely. I picked the receipe up from the website allreceipes.

The Perfect Pair

It not copying if you think its supercool. I finally scored a silvertone version of the 1955 AO Flame it has no additional flamette but the signs are good its the same size as the one I already have. Heres a picture of me wearing A O Perfect mate, I have Mary Van Notes blog to blame for my new obsession. And time is not on my side, I have plans for a new life in the Autumn and reduced pay, so vintage buying will become a luxury, well unless its furniture for the flat.

In Search of a Perfect Pair

It seems I have become obsessed with attaining 1955 American Optical Flame glasses. The lovely set I recently accquired are a little too small. But lucky would have it, etsy and eBay have a few pairs and a set is available on eBay right now! I was able to score a larger pair that, also came with interchangeable flamettes. And I also found a pair of Perfect Mate glasses minus other trims, but dont fret I shall keep up the good work. Meet my new pair. I now have 3 pairs of vintage American Optical,now what are the chances of getting them in silvertone?

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